(Friday, September 29, 2006 / 10:33 PM)
this week is not exactly oh-so-great for me...yes...i have started again...why?coz i am insecure...it's stupid and i know it is...i stopped before but now i am doin it again...it hurts but it feels good...but once i see the scars and face the reality that it doesn't solve my problems...i breakdown...i duno how long i can take it...exams are near and i had my first paper today...i felt lyk shit...all i could think about for english was that i couldn't screw up...this exam was the most important and i couldn't screw it up...one badly written or wrongly formatted essay and it's all gone...chinese was worse...i couldn't think straight and it didn't help that i could barely string a sentence together...it has been a year since i did it...but now the urge is back and i surrendered to it...i am sorry...but i made both of u the promise that no matter wat happens...i wun ever do it again...but will u believe me?do u still care?the last conversation i had with u ended badly and i had that urge to pick the penknife up and do it again...but i stop myself...it's no use...all it does is leave me with a temporary feeling of relief ...and once that feeling is gone...reality comes crashing down hard on me and i see the scars it leaves...and i am stopping...no matter how hard it's goin to be...i am stopping...
(Tuesday, September 26, 2006 / 4:24 PM)
JONATHAN LOST!!!oh no!!why?!!!although i have to admit hady winning it isn't so bad...imagine if jasmine won?!!hady can sing...but so can jon!!hady is cute and jon is oh-so-HOT!!oh well...i am damn sure jon will get a contract...an album and a wonderful singing career...GO JON!!!and all the best to hady...p:s:and if anybody tags me with stupid comments abt it,go crap somewhere esle...
(Friday, September 22, 2006 / 9:40 PM)
lalalalala~whee!!!ok...i am in a happy mood today!!!mostly becoz of the fact that my bee turn out well after hours of paint,glue,bead,more glue,more paint....ah...u get the picture...i lurve it!!!it better be returned to me after grading and it better be in one piece!!!denise....u R impatient!!dun u go i can only go online once aweek?unlike u fortunate ppl?!poo u...again i say...if it wasnt for the fact that u feed me...i would have sued u long ago!!!u r SO lucky to have a pet lyk me...but on the other hand...that pet u got me?kinky?shes really amusing...but...very disobedient!!!could u send her to obedience classes for me?i promise if i ever sued u...i will drop one charge against u...serious!pls?oh!oh!oh!!i am goin to the singapore idols finals!!!!thank you waiyin!!!i owe u one...proberly will return it to u in the next lifetime or so...(hopefully i wun meet u again)...i lurve jon!!whee!!its so obvious who gets my vote...isnt jon a lucky guy?he better be appreciative!!oh...fatin...dun think abt it so much...wats done is done...if u r innocent...theres nth to be afraid of...im sure he knows how to take care of himself anyway...he fights for goodness sake!!!check out the muscles!!!haha!!and what's more...u have me!!!arn't you a lucky gurl?haha...B2F2 is lurve!!!i...on the other hand...am cheering up day after day...but everything may juz come crashing down again...that i wun know...but i hope it wun ever happen...coz one more time and it will never be the same me again...in the mean time!!!i am enjoying life!!!and if it wasnt for the fact that exams are in a week's time...i will be out and bouncing around!!!poo exams!!=D
(Sunday, September 17, 2006 / 1:36 PM)
ok...ello...my blog's update is 2 days overdue and i am sorry...i was out on friday and sat is my sis's comp day...so poo...now...i have a pet!!!her name is ahem...KINKY!!aka...tay wanlin...she was bought by my LOWLY...(look at how i emphasize the word LOWLY)owner...so now i am denise's pet...and KINKY is my petpet...get it?no?nvm...oh! oh!and do u know?ZUHAILI IS MINE!!!whahaha!!!wait!wait!!not in that way!!!no...really!!!let me explain!!he's my ion...becoz fatin has shafiq and zam so i have zuhaili...(zuhaili...u beta appreciate bein called an ion...coz ions r hot...ha!)wait the best has yet to come....get this...JASMINE IS OUT!!!O-U-T!OUT!i am a happy happy child!!happy happy!!HAPPY!~~she is lyk so many weeks overdue!!so know jon and hady is in the finals!!!whee!!whee!!whee~!oh no...bad news owner...my dad said NO...i cant go wakeboardin...why?i duno...ask him...poo...and i was So eager...poo...oh...do u ppl noe the sayin"promises are meant to be broken"?i didn't belive it at first...until it starts happenin to me...now i am torned and i duno wat to do...exams are coming and this has to stop...how?i duno...but i am determined to make sure it will be over soon...
(Friday, September 08, 2006 / 10:46 PM)
ok...hiya ppl!!today's post is gonna be a long one...pretty much becoz so many things happened this week...some good...some bad and some juz plain crazy...=Dwell...for once...i am gonna start writing in paragraghs mainly becoz my ahem....OWNER complains that it's SOOOO hard to read...and i,naturally,bein so nice...decide to listen to her...(can't help it...if she goes cross-eyed readin...i wun get fed...)so count your many lucky stars my LOWLY owner...to start off...i'll start with wat happen today...I AM A PLUTONIAN!!!!!!!!whee!!!okok...let me explain...a plutonian is somebody who is against the departure of pluto the planet...lyk yours truly...=p...so i am a plutonian!!coz i think scientist are stupid for demoting pluto to be a DWARF planet...shez...pluto has been the ninth planet for how many years?!!shez...ok...today...we had our netball carnival...yeah...and before today there was trainin on wed AND thurs...my whole body aches now...but i am NOT sunburned!!!unlike my fellow netballers...i think i am immune to the sunrays or something...ain't that totally awesome?!!whahaha!!!next...ahem ahem...*cough*cough*...PAUL IS OUT?!!!!!!!!!hello?!!!jasmine should be the one kicked out!!!!can't she juz leave the three guys alone?!!!and get her grimy hands off jon!!!if she gets in next week...and either hady or...*gasp*heaven forbid!!...jon gets out...i am gonna boycott mediacorp and tear jasmine to a million little pieces!!!grr...oh...last thing...my deepest condolences...to the death of steve irwin...the one and only "crocodile hunter"...i couldn't believe it when i heard the news...i thought it was juz a cruel joke...but...hiaz...he was juz such an awesome guy...me and my sis used to be glued to the tv screen every time his show came on...can't believe i can't watch him sayin "crikey!" anymore...oh well...kudos to you crocodile hunter...may you rest in peace...=')
(Friday, September 01, 2006 / 9:44 PM)
JOAKIM IS OUT!!!oh god!after weeks and weeks...he's finally out!and i hate to say this...but...i am sad to see him go...i know he's the worst singer but to tell the truth...i rather see jasmine out first...but at least the poor guy doesn't have to deal with critism evert week now...he's only 18 yet the critism he gets are SO cruel...i am surprise he din't break down...all the best joakim...but now...jonathan!!oh god!!his song this week!the song "unforgetable"...is oh-my-god!!!when he sang the starting line...i juz melted...the voice!the voice!!oh god!!it was truly unforgettable...*swoon*ok...now...HAPPY TEACHERS DAY to all teachers!!endless days of markin papers,screamin at pupils and gettin major headaches from students lyk me...i salute you...but seriously...dun you guys juz lurve us?think of it this way...without us...you guys wun have jobs!!that will give u sumthing to think about the next time you decide to give us truckloads of homework!ok...this week is a pretty drama filled week...wun elaborate though...some things are better off left unsaid...but be strong k?i lurve u gurl...and u will 4eva have me & u-know-hu...u noe who u r...haha...whAckBANG!i was sick and could not go to school on thursday...woke up in the middle of the night vomittin...have no idea wat is wrong with me...damn...missed my chance of goin to school and wishin all teachers a happy teachers day and givin them a headache...espicially miss chong...damn it...haha...school's out and it's a one week break before it's time for exams...urgh!still have to go back for trainins but hiaz...Oh!!denise!!my dad said no!!damn!!but i am not giving up yet!!i really want to go wakeboarding and i will try to make it for the fest!=)i am a gurl on a mission!!haha!!gotta run...have to think of a plan!!haha!=p
