I'm VaL★ Reality is overrated,my imagination is not. And one day,jellyfishes will rule the world.

don't promise me forever Cause maybe i don't exist Layout: hasta mañana Inspiration: balloon.s Fonts: toomunch Icons: defying affection Lyrics: Funny Little World Others: colour codes

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i don't get it.
do i like have something on me or do i give out a sign that say"please make use of me at your own pleasure and feel free to pretend i don't exist after that"?
i really don't get it.

it seems as though i am being used most of the time just for entertainment.
you know...when you get bored and have nothing better to do?
then it'll be like..."oh!i know!find val!she'll keep me entertained till i find something to do!"
whatever.

i may seem like i sometimes don't have care in the world but i have feelings too.
i a not just some worthless toy you cast aside after you are done with it.
i am worth more than that.
but you obviously don't think that.

i've had enough of all you guys thinking i am just some temporary entertainment tool.
burn that into mind.

i am bored~
which is kind of the only other time i blog.
haha.
its seems that i blog only when i am pissed or very bored.xD

why is nobody replying to my messages?!
okay fine.
it's only shan huai...but still!!!
i wanna know who's goin tomorrow!!
or i'll skip school.xD

had training today.
ran my ass okay!!!
(nah...my ass is still intact.xD)
training again on wednesday.and saturday.

i am fat.
yeah.i am.
damn.
must.lose.weight.

till then.xD






hey peeps?!
tell me if you prefer this current song or the previous one.
you know..."a lonely september"...yeah...that one.
or...
you want me to put rock songs that could permanantly damaged your eardrums again.xD
let me know alrite?
thank you!xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REBECCA!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN HUAI!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVAN!!!!

see?i bothered typing a greeting for each one and not just put "AND....AND..."xD
okay fine.
its not as if evan gonna read this and shan huai....well...never mind.
at least i had the heart to wish!!!

fine.
pfft.

i am bored~
yeah.as if you couldn't already tell from that insanity up there.xD
i am bored and nobody's online!and those that are online are unresponsive!!
argh!

oh.
new song!
"maybe" from Secondhand Serenade.
kinda sweet.=)

i.have.absulutely.nothing.to.say.
fine.
till then.xD




blogged~

my mind has now gone completely blank after my earlier conversations.
so there.
no proper posting today.
sorry!

MCR IS COMING TO S'PORE!!!!!
WHEE!!!!
I WANNA GO!!!!
and thats why i am blogging in black...in honour of them...haha..wth?!xD

ahh!!!
I RAN OUT OF FREE MSGS!!!
AND I HAVE 8 MORE DAYS TILL MY NEW BILL STARTS!!!
AND I AM AVERAGING 50+ MSGS A DAY!!!
I AM SO BUSTED.

i am bored la.
after all that screaming up there...i forgot what i actually wanted to write about.
hur.
oh well.
i'll come back when i rmb it.

till then!=D

if i had wrote this a few hours earlier...it won't be like this...it'll be all emo-slasher thing you know?
but i finally managed to somehow get my thoughts straight.
it was freaky though.
my mind was everywhere,it wasnt focusing and i was feeling just so exposed and insecure...yeah.i was feeling scared for no reason at all.
scary shit.

i don't know.
things have been pretty rough this few days.
trying to cope though.
thank god fatin is around .

oh well...enough of this emo-ish stuff.
too much negative karma you know?
haha.
but hey...school starts tomorrow...how positive can that be?!

Ooo!i wanna SO go out with daph and feli again!
we'll go shopping and pool-ing again okay?!
when we have no school...or trainin...or remedials...or extra classes...or other plans....
yeah?=D

oh.
and becca dear?
cheer up!
you have me!
how can you not be smiling already?!xD
there is SOOO many more other guys around...and when this didn't work out it shows that he isnt the guy for you...that means theres another one out there which you'll meet one day.
alright?
just keep in mind i love you and so do so many others...and thats all that matters okay?(of course..me loving you is the most important thing!xD)

its 12.30 and i am not sleepy~
but school's tomorrow and as much as i hate it..i have to go...shucks.
so i am off~

till then!
(miss me!xD)


fucking bored right now.
and not in the best of moods either.
have nothing better so i am here.

went out with feli and daph today.
met them first to go century square to get stuff but the shop wasnt there anymore.
so we went to safra to meet up with the other netballers.
daph,feli and me bowled one game then proceeded to play three games of pool.
then went to the billard room to find charissa.
went off after about 5 mins becoz we wanted to have lunch and head to far east.
in the end,ate lunch but skipped the far east part.

decided to accompany daphne play bball.
met her friends.
but felt kinda akward.
feli left early and i left soon after.
so i am here.
fucking bored as hell.

this is another day of my pathetic fucked up life.
whee.

till then.

fucking pissed right now.
i am worth more than your attitude thank you very much.

gonna go play bball now.
just came home to change.

argh!
this so suck.

my mum doesnt allow me to buy any more slogan tees!!
she say i have too many!!
but i only have 5!!
she say it's getting common!!
but the"little miss" tees are more common!!
i want slogan tees!!i want to start my own collection!
this sucks.darn.

had training today..exhausting okay?!
ran and ran and ran...
hur.

okay.fatin say since i am talking on the phone with her now.i must blog about her.
okay.
i am on the phone with fatin now.
there.=D

till then.=)

this sucks.
i am sorry fatin.

Mmm...eating TCC's oreo cheesecake now...
how many ways can you say"awesome"?
*sigh*
now you know why i am fat!
but wat the heck?it taste SO good.
and so bloody difficult to find good tasting cheesecake...rock hard stone slaps doesn not qualify for cheesecake!

currently crapping with zul...my super hot ion...haha.
he seems to have a knack for freaking me out..but i still love that guy la.haha.
he keeps me sane and laughing(alot)...haha.and he always knows when to come by...he just saved me from another thinking session...haha...
i have such awesome friends.
thank god.=D

just read fatin's blog...
bloody hell.
she wrote that its compulsory to pass maths before we can advance to sec 5...
i hyperventilated okay!!!
its the sec 2 batch la ass!!you can kill me with info like that okay!!!
i thought i had to start looking for a private school to get my O level cert!
coz me and passing maths AIN'T gonna happen anytime soon!

i am bored.
bloody damn well bored.
and kinda pissed.
oh.i feel a mood swing coming on.
i should be expecting this anyway...

got no mood to write about anything now.
till then.

hey~
had a blast on friday!although the group got seperated in the end...it was still pretty awesome.yup.=D
met them in the morning at 11.30...okay fine...i got there at 11.50...the latest as always.xD
headed down to bugis with daph first becoz gab asked me to buy lunch for him and during my insane not-thinking moment i decided to.after providing food to that big bird-brain...we headed back to marina and met them there...eating.ha.
daph,feli,han bin and me didnt want to eat so we decided to go window shopping first.walk through the whole place and went back to the bowling alley when waiyin called.
but we didnt bowl.
i mean the four of us didnt.didnt like the lanes there so decided to go to tampines safra instead.
waited for them as they wanted to come along to play pool.
we waited awhile then got bored and headed to arcade.played daytona and all those.i crashed becoz of felicia chua!and came in last.damn.

after like 45 mins in there...they were....still bowling.
walked around marina agin then headed to suntec where we kinda made a fool of ourselves at Carrefour.haha.well..han bin did.not so much us...haha...
finally called them and asked where they are..they were still bowling!asked if they wanted to come along and to meet us there but they didnt want to go so we cabbed down ourselves.
met jopie (i think his name is so cute!xD) there and waited 45 mins for a bloody lane...played 2 and a half game...mainly because jopie swung his bowling ball back and hit the console jamming the whole thing.haha.

pity we had to rush home so early though.feli had to be home.but we managed to squeeze in a round of pool...and han bin taught me how to play...=D
then cabbed home while the boys went for badminton...wished we could have stayed out longer though.but it was still awesome.=D

oh.
and fatin?
cheer up.
don't think so much about it eh?
and yuni?
if you are reading this...just go easy on fatin okay?
it wasnt easy for her as well...i know you are hurt and all but so is she.
i hope the both of you just cheer up alrite?

oh.its 12.
HAPPY 13TH MONTH B2F2!!!
I'LL FOREVER LOVE YOU GUYS.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.


EXAMS ARE OVER~
whee~
2 weeks of total mugging and madass cramming finally over...yay!
art was the last paper today and i spent yesterday panicking over prep work till 2am...but it turn out okay and it's over!if i don't pass...i swear i am gonna tear everything up and throw it down the rubbish chute.

gonna celebrate completion of exams properly tomorrow.
it's gonna be rad awesome!
bowling,shopping and fun!whee~
hur.
poor gab.
wanted to come along but has to work.
hah.i bowl for you okay gab?whahaha.
and you still owe me cable boarding!

oh.and fatin dear?chill out.
everything is gonna turn out fine.maybe not soon or not now but it will eventually...
life has a funny way of twisting the easiest way out into a longer route but you will be fine.
don't worry about it.
i will always be here if you need me...even when you don't,i'll still be there.
and daddy too.nothing makes things feel better than love.and you have loads of it from the 2/3 of B2F2.=D
so quit worrying okay?
i love you and thats the most important thing that matters.xD
oh.and daddy does too.i am sure.=D

gotta go start aimlessly doing stuff now.
bye~


new song!whee~
really cute...its "a lonely september" by plain white Ts...zuh sent it to me and i thought it was so sweet!its not like the usual rock songs i put on the blog but its a nice change...i was getting irritated with the last song.=)

okay.
2 more paper to go!chinese and art*groan*
supposed to be drawing and concentrating on art now instead of doin this.
but my art stuff are still lying on the floor waiting for me.
i stare at it but i just have no motivation to actually start doing anything.
i am probably gonna rush like shit tomorrow but i not gonna have a repeat of what happened for mid year!
i had to give up my sleep!

oh.
and fatin?
YOU ARE THE SWEETEST LA!
but i was sweet first!!haha!
i love you too~

okay.
i should probably stop lazing around and start on art...right about now...yeah.
okay fine.
after i update my mp3!i swear!
hee.xD




okay fine.
i am back because fatin lyana forced me to.
she called me an ass for my short post.what gives?!at least i posted right!

and she asked me to blog about her?
ok fine.she asked for it.
i'll show you what i have learnt from hist/ss

P:fatin says she's nice.

E:it is evident when she said"me?being sweet and all?"

E:she has that idea that she nice and sweet and wants others to think the same way as well.

S:in conclusion...fatin THINKS she's sweet...but the thing is...we all know better.

there.see?i blogged about you.=D
okay...but seriously though.i probably cant survive without her.she keeps me sane.
and daddy in love.haha.
now she's gonna be all proud and boasting and all...haha...but...i love you la gurl~

oh.and fiq say i must blog about him too.okay.
fiq dear...i love you too~
haha!i duno what to write?!haha!
at least got your name right fiq?!haha!
remember our deal eh!

okay.this should be long enough la.if not.you blog la okay fatin.=D
bye for real.

History-ing~~
ok fine..if i was studying i wouldnt be blogging....but i am getting to it okay?!

i just dun feel like doing anything now...you know....i just want to sit and do nothing at all...i just want a human presence and total silence...
it hasnt been the same...

okay...i know you guys would be going "huh?" right about now...haha...its alright...
gotta go study now..or at least try to...
sorry for the crap posting today...i have no mood to do anything...
bye.

whee~
hur.
feeling kinda high today.
started in the morning before lit paper...got a headache before,during and after maths paper(duh)and got high again in the evening.=D
but you know what?deep down...i know i am feeling just damn fucked up.=)
it ain't easy for me.even though i know fatin is there for me.and daddy too.but still...

just have to deal with it and live my life.
6 more papers to go.bloody hell.
maths papers is a goner.guranteed.=)
been popping panadols for my constant headaches.hope its just from lack of sllep and major cramming.
i am not nice when i am headach-y.trust me.

Ooo!Ooo!!FATIN HAS NEW BLOG!!
hur.
doing advertising for her without her asking.see?i am SO nice.
the link is there--->
i am sure you know how her name is spelt.if not...check if the URL says "youhadmeat-hello"...hur.
i swear some people come up with the wierdest lines.

okay.gotta go.do some other stuff then off to bed for my week worth of lost sleep.
good night!=D