(Wednesday, February 25, 2009 / 11:25 PM)
bored.exhausted.worried.helpless.school today.tired.although my friends had fun coming up with NAMES!haha.xDclass cheer after school.tension.but me and fatin had our fun being complete bitches.xDafter school.went back home with fatin for me to change.headed to elias prima deli,then whitesands for Bangawan solo and Polar.=)found out what we wanted.got her hot dog.then i ran off cause i was late in heading to Raffles.=)headed to Raffles.20 mins late but still ended up waiting.got lost looking for Subway.=)got my cookies but no peanut butter.=(headed home.bored.gonna go find something to do.till then.loves.=)★i don't know what's gonna happen.i am letting you decide.
(Tuesday, February 24, 2009 / 10:54 PM)
second batch of webcam photos up.=)
please note atiqah in the background in the photos where i looked espicially horrible.=)
gonna deal away with my bangs soon...=)
nothing much to blog about.
failed maths and physics common test.
passed english by 1 and a half mark.
=_=
and i am so fucking tired.
i need to do art!
i haven't even decided on a question yet!
i am SO screwed.
shucks.
this sucks.
i am bored.
i wanna go look for something esle to do.
like...go crosseyed and frustrated deciding what to do with the endless options for editing photos in Picnik.=D
till then.
loves.=)
★
okay.i am sorry i hurt you.
something i didnt even realise.
again.
i just thought of it when you began avoiding and ignoring me.
Again.
but now i remember why you got mad at me.
and yeah,i still think you were stupid in thinking that way that time.
i admit that i wasn't treating you in the best way.
i kept venting my anger,frustrations and made you worry constantly.
but you said you understood.
but then you proved you didnt in the end.
i thought you were the Sillysilly who understood me and who i could share and tell everything to.
but nope,you hurt me too by thinking like you did that day.
but whatever it is,i am still sorry.
(Sunday, February 22, 2009 / 9:44 PM)
i've always nagged at fatin for leaving her blog to die.and yet i've been doing the same thing.xDmainly for the reason that i just do not have the mood to get online and am too tired.=(will try to update more though.=)had flagday yesterday.how many ways can i say that i hate it?!had to wake up at 8.30am!okay i cheated,i went back to sleep and woke up at 9am...and that was still too early!and we started at 10 but me,fatin,raz,atiqah and rebec spent 2 hours at my house checking emails to confirm the design of our class tshirts.=)and we webcamwhored.xDphotos up there are half of the baatch,other half up soon.=)and then we headed to Simei to do collecting...right.well...reb,raz and atiqah did collect..fatin and me just stood around,walked more,talked even more and curse uncharitable people the most.=Dand ended up heading back to Whitesands for KFC.=Dwe'll get BK and Subway another day okay?=Dspent an hour at KFC mainly cause i eat really really slowly.xDand then went hair accessories shopping at Aries..i got my comb!it's purple!fatin's blue.=Dand then headed to More Than Words and laugh at the soft toys.xDi still want that seal fatin!!and after returning the can...headed back to Whitesands with Raz so that he could find a birthday card for his mum but to no avail...then we met rebec and went to get her lunch and then i wanted to go to the library cause i could feel my brain cells depleting from not reading for so long!i CAN feel it people!don't scoff!=Dand then i headed home where lucas and marcus was already waiting.=Dtalked,laughed,bathed,changed and headed to Summerbreeze at Pasir ris park with mum for drinks.=)ate first and watched lots of PRCS pupils walk up and down...all after CIP.haha...saw ernest with one huge group then saw teck heng with another huge group and some others.=)talked and luaghed alot yesterday.and laughed alot more when we started ordering drinks.=Donly had 14.8% of alcohol and already i was feeling really high.=Dcause it has been real long since i've last drank..=)but i wasn't drunk!i found out alot about lucas and vice versa...not all pleasant but it's not gonna be reminded of again.=)and then we counted stars.=Dand climbed the spiderweb with marcus and i was so scared lucas had to help me up.=_=but i got down myself!=Dheaded home around 1.30am.i nearly stepped on a frog!haha...=Di had fun.=)i wanna do this way way more often.right.i've talked too much today.=Dgonna head off now.till then.loves.=)and i know you bunch of people i love oh-so-much are gonna laugh and tease me when you see this but yes,I DO MISS MY BOYF.=D
★can you stop being mad at me and ignoring me?if i did hurt you,i am sorry.
(Wednesday, February 18, 2009 / 12:05 AM)
i really didnt want to come online today but since i am here,i might as well blog.=)things have been pretty rough these days.in everything.i guess i need to sort my thoughts out and even it out as well.school is well...i don't know really.i just don't like it.but so far,i am holding on.at least,i think.=)and as for you.i wish you just really leave me and my family alone.don't you get it?i CAN be happy without you.this i can perfectly prove to you.so just go.i never wanted it to end this badly but you're not giving me much choice.i don't want trouble.i doon't care if you want to get even with me.but not when you get my family and friends involved.just go.right.i am off to continue what i am online in the first place for.conversation with my boy online.=)till then.loves.=)i love you boy.i know things' been rough sometimes cause of certain stuff.but it'll be alright.it's not gonna affect us.not this.and you know it.loves.
(Sunday, February 15, 2009 / 11:50 PM)
i don't know why i am here.i have nothing to write about.haha.and i refuse to post ANY of yesterday's photos cause NONE of it turned out nice!NONE!*&%$##(#@^!!!but at least i had an awesome day out.=)although we did wasted 3 hours of our life in that theater...The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button is FUCKING DAMN BORING!don't say i didnt warn you!and and...jolene...I LOVE YOU MY CAPPY ASSHOLIC VALENTINE!=Di wanted to wish you one last time before midnight yesterday but i fell asleep..haha..sorry!=Dpoor you had to spent most of the day sick at home and valentine-less...who asked you don't want to accept my invitation earlier!haha...at least i offered again!=Di hope you feel better already and if not..get well soon love!=Dand to you.i never wanted it to turn out this badly.but you never could accept it when i didn't do things your way.well this time,i am not sorry for what i am doing.i am not gonna let you control me again.curse,taunt,rant and threaten all you want.i am NOT intrested in "trying" you.i know what you are capable of and i don't need to see it for myself.i never said i don't believe your claims.stop making it seem you're the ruler of the universe cause right now,you can't seem more like the biggest fuckup that ever lived.right.i am done.till then.loves.=)thanks for an awesome day out boy.loves.=)
(Saturday, February 14, 2009 / 12:48 AM)
HAPPY 29TH ANNI B2F2!AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!=Dso it's....HAPPY VALENTINE SQUARESQUARE DAY!=Di love you guys so so so so much!we'll last forever okay?!it's only the 29th!=Dtoday's Friday the 13th eh?yup,pretty unlucky...oh well.just fuck off.=)can't wait for tomorrow.=Dvivocity~i want my Valentine.=)right.i am not exactly in the right state of mind to blog now.too many things happened today.good and bad.mostly bad.=(anyway,till then.loves.=)happy valentine's day boy.my stupid dodo.=Dloves.=)
(Wednesday, February 11, 2009 / 9:13 PM)
SICK.this sucks.my throat hurts like hell and i am all flu-ey.i've already missed two days of school.and i don't even know if i can make it tomorrow as well.sucks.i missed tests,lessons and homework.i have ALOT to catch up on.i may be the person who hates school the most but i know i still have O's to take.but once that is over....=Dright.i am off.need to take my meds.till then.loves.=)=)
(Monday, February 09, 2009 / 11:30 PM)
awesome game today.
like...really awesome.=)
really nail biting.
and we won by two.
yay!=D
great job girls!
and i left my Nike bottle in the bus.
=_=
and i am a really happy child today.=D
first the game....
then my "surprise" for Saturday.=D
and yet,
all good things don't last.
i am currently sneezing so badly that i can't open my eyes.=(
and i think i am gonna get a sore throat.
damn it.
i do not want to get sick.
or if i do..i better be well by Saturday.
right.=(
right.
i am expected to just drop and snooze off sonn as i just took meds.
till then.
loves.=)
(Saturday, February 07, 2009 / 11:35 PM)
alright.been's a long time since i've blogged.that much is obvious.=)just haven't been online these past days...tired and all...missed school on thursday and friday.those we know why,good for you.those who don't,too bad.=Dmanaged to get alot of my stuffs done.finally.never realised school took up so much of my time...so when i finally missed school..i suddenly had so much time to do so many things.=)i got my phone repaired.=Dit only took a day,thank god.not like SONY ERICSSON's which takes ages!haha...i still very biased against Sony E no matter what.and i am NEVER gonna be converted.NEVER.got it?haha..=Dand i realised that when you don't go to school,you suddenly get to see all your schoolmates around wherever you go.=__=went to TM on thurs to repair my phone with mum and stuff and saw a few of my schoolmates though i couldn't remember who...went back to TM yesterday to get my phone back and was with mum and two others[=)]...and saw vanessa,swee min,waihing,susan and suying.=__=it's like shoving it in my face that "hey!you weren't in school!"and i think some of them looked pretty surprise to see me yesterday...but i am not telling why.=)right.i think i've updated enough for now...till then.loves.=)★given up.gave up.done.
(Monday, February 02, 2009 / 11:35 PM)
photos from primary school gathering.
not all of them cause i was too lazy to uplod everything although for once Blogger was freakishly fast...
haha..
and i jsut realised i look horrid in all the photos.
=_=
bahh.
school started.
i.hate.school.
find me somebody esle who claims they hate school more than me and you'll see them admit defeat to me.
yes,i hate it that much.
damn.
i am tired.
it's almost 12.
i think i'll go off soon.
till then.
loves.★
it's no use.
it seems as though the more we try to stop the fights from happening,it'll happen more often.
the way we think seem so different from one another.
i know we each don't want to hurt the other,but this is exactly what we are doing arn't we?
it'll be okay.
will it?really?
