★Oh Fuckjoy.

(Tuesday, June 30, 2009 / 9:37 PM)

my goldfish died.=(

it's not fair.
everything is slowly leaving me.
it was fine yesterday!
see?
what i say is true.
if things are going well...watch out.
it's gonna end bad.

my head has been hurting so damn bad these few days.
i can't concentrate in school.
O's is in a few months.
i don't have the time.
why isn't this over?

this isn't good.
i think i'm far from okay.
fuck it.

(Monday, June 29, 2009 / 10:09 PM)

i'm having a fucking splitting headache thats making me disoriented and seeing double.
shit.

but just to make it clear.
i am NOT starvin myself.
i DO eat.
if i don't it's cause i don't have an appetite.
so give me a break.

stupid headache.

(Sunday, June 28, 2009 / 10:44 PM)

["We have a problem with wallabies entering poppy fields, getting as high as a kite and going around in circles," state attorney-general Lara Giddings told a parliamentary estimates hearing.
"Then they crash. We see crop circles in the poppy industry from wallabies that are high," local media reported Ms Giddings as saying.]

aww!this is so freaking adorable!
haha!
crops circles made by something much more adorable than aliens afterall.
bummer.
heh.=D

school starts tomorrow~
sucks.
i'm having a splitting headache already.
dammit.

i'm bored.
nobody is online.=(
i'm so bored that i'm wasting time doing quizzes on Facebook.
how pathetic is that?!
*sigh*

save me.
please!

(Saturday, June 27, 2009 / 11:33 AM)

i think this is gonna be the last post i ever write to you.

finally,
i think i'm ready and i'm moving on.
i don't mean i'm gonna forget cause that can never happen.
but i'm ready to put it behind me.

i got most of my answers i guess.
and i'm glad for that.
i feel free-er.

were you selfish to back off?
i knew you were going to.
maybe it wasn't wanting to back off that was selfish.
it was your actions.
the way you did it.
i should have been the first to know of what you wanted.
but you told the person closest to me instead.
and never mentioned anything to me.
i expected it but not that soon.
that hurt me.
that the people around me knew but not me.

maybe i wasn't good enough for you.
i'm nice you say.
but so are many others.
we weren't built to last.
and that early determination at the start of us fizzled out as expected.
you need things and actions that are different from me.
you trust easy,i don't.
i'm more insecure than you know.
we are complete opposites.
and that obstacle caught up with us cause we couldn't sort it out.

maybe i'm being harsh now.
but i think neither of us were really ready for a relationship anyway.
you had your fair share of ex-girlfriends.
i had experiences that haunted me.
maybe i wanted to escape and unfortunately you were the one around.
and i should have known that i was probably making a mistake.
your past and mine wouldn't make it.
i refused to accept it i guess.
i knew you couldn't stick to anyone for long.
you arn't ready for that.
but i was willing to take the risk but now i know,it didnt pay off.

you've probably already put everything behind you.
you were like that.
too easy-going at times.
and i'm sure it won't be long till you try again with somebody esle.
and i,
i just wished it didnt ended so harshly.
that you didnt do it that way.
but it happened and it won't changed.
this is over.
and it hurt alot more than i thought it would.
but then,i never expected it to end like that anyway.
but i learned from this i guess.
and i think we're glad it finally ended.
take care boy.

(Friday, June 26, 2009 / 11:29 AM)

KITE FLYING AT MARINA BARRAGE!
AWESOME FUN!
PHOTOS UP!=D
thank you norvan for wanting to bring me.=)
ans thanks to the rest with me.
i finally laughed for real.
smiled for real.
and went totally insane.
i finally felt like me.=)
now i think i just want my answers.
i'm gonna be alright.=)

OMFG!
NORVAN REACTIVATED MY LONG DEAD FACEBOOK ACCOUNT!
I'M ON FACEBOOK!
I FEEL SO CONTRIDICTING.
I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.
=_=